I don’t want to have anyone thinking i’m some sort of emo kid because of my screen name. Not that there is anything wrong with that, it’s just not me. In a way it is me feeling sorry for myself i suppose but only through the torment that men have put me through. Yes this will be one of ‘those’ blogs if you don’t like that, feel free to leave now.
Do i have your attention? Good, lets begin.
Now i won’t bore you with to many intermate details about my past, i’m just like any other woman. I’ve had my heart broken more times then i dare to count, i’ve been beaten by boyfriends and my father, i’ve been raped, i’ve been cheated on…. blah blah blah. This does not make me a man hater, i happen to get along better with men than women, but when i get involved with someone i have a tendancy to put on my rose tinted glasses and put up with far more than any individual should. Unless of course your one of the good guys, then i bearly notice you exist. After many talks with my girlfriends it seems it’s not just me, sorry guys, i wish i could explain this to you but i can’t. It makes as much sense to us females as it does you, trust me!
A few years back i use to date my now best friend. He always had something nice to say, flowers (just because), would watch my programs on the t.v and never once complained he was missing some sport event or any other crap he liked. Only problem, me. As soon as we got involved i lost interest. I guess now i think about it, it wasn’t all that exciting once we were together.
Bad boys are exciting. That doesn’t really need any more explanation really, i will of course. Not that cruel to you.
Currently seeing a guy, cute American (oh i’m British incase you didn’t know) he is perfect! First date i fell in lust. If i could have sat down and created my perfect man, he would still come second to the cute american a.k.a Carl. We’ve been seeing each other for a few months and things have started getting hot, well untill he dropped the ‘f’ bomb on me. “i’m not sure where i am right now, is it cool if we stay as friends for now?” I won’t lie i felt crushed but smiled sweetly and said yes of course, not wanting to loose this guy from my life so soon after finding him. Stupid i know, but i never said i was smart,ok. Anyway, nothing really changed after this, we are still hanging out, the same. Keeping things steamy, the same. So is pretty clear the dude is having his cake and eating it to, any normal person would leave right or stamp there feet in protest? Wrong!!! No girl or guy for that matter, in there right mind would walk away just like that, disagree and you haven’t been where i am now, simple as that.
So now i’m stuck becuase i really like this dude and i’m curious to know if anything could happen. It just makes me mad when i think of all the nice guys i put to one side for the sake of following some guy round like his pet dog, which wouldn’t be so bad if i just had a little more attention. Throw the dog a bone ok!
Right now, i could say a million cliches to make myself or you feel better about the whole battle of the sexes but i ain’t that chessey. This is one of those journeys i’ve only just started and i’m inviting you along to share it with me.
Untill next time guys and dolls. x
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